Sunday, 11 September 2016

Sunday - 9/11

I’ve had an incredibly busy couple of weeks - working days and often at night in the bar - so apologies for lack of updates.

Event wise, apart from the Fringe festival stuff - some of which was good - some very bad - there was a laser light show on the pier last night that was a bit underwhelming but very popular - despite the rain. We’re about to hit a week of very good weather -probably the end of the summer - so I didn’t really mind. I also worked on a very expensive but equally underwhelming burlesque event that I think was over priced and political a bit rocky.

I have had a lot of work on, mostly small projects, quite complicated and generally badly paid - but that’s life.

Today, 9/11 - I decided to watch ‘Man on Wire’ rather than anything to do with the other events of that day - I never got to see the Twin Towers and I’d rather remember them positively than anything else. It’s also a great film (the documentary - not the new biography).

15 years have passed since 9/11 - like most people - I remember everything in detail from that day. 15 years actually doesn’t seem that long - an awful lot has happened and my life has changed many times since then - I was living in Brighton and commuting regularly to London - since then I’ve lived in Liverpool and now hastings (9 years - the longest I’ve lived anywhere) - and I’ve been to several weddings and several funerals. I have hardly any of the friends I had them - in a lot of ways I’m much happier and I’m far better at my job and more expert than I was then - but work is much harder. The world is a very different place. I think people are different too. I was 35 then - but I didn’t feel it. I certainly don’t feel 50 now - whatever that’s supposed to be like.

I painted my front door and replaced all the door furniture - it looks great, even though the house is falling down. The day after I finished the top coat, a large scratch appeared across the front at head height - I suspect it was the postman’s bag scraping it - I had to touch it up.  fitted a ledge to the top of some panelling in the dining room so I could prop pictures up on it rather than have them wallowing in storage, took less than an hour - I’ve been meaning to do it for a couple of years. It took 10 mins to fit a new front door know that I’ve had in a draw for 2 years assuming it would be much more difficult.

My dairy intake is now down to about half a pint a week, pretty happy about that and feeling well - starting to lose a bit around the middle too.

Apparently - and I have this on very good authority - but no direct evidence - someone I consider to be very, very ‘big’ had bought a house near me. I can’t say who - but lets just say I’m in the Happy House, she’s probably going to cultivate a Hong Kong Garden and I’ll codename her ‘Christine’.

Facebook has been acting up recently - I can’t make head nor tail of it for some reason, I think they are introducing changes etc. It keeps trying to suggest new friends somehow harvested from my past. One of the ‘friends’ keeps suggesting is my X, which is odd - as we have had no contact for a couple of years - and they were adamant they would never join Facebook - but here they are, with a little profile picture. The disconcerting thing is the actual photo - I realised straight away that it was taken outside a theatre before a show by Kate Bush - as a friend who lives local has an identical profile picture taken from exactly the same spot. It just added to my distress and discomfort at seeing the photo. Could have done without that.

I have a heavy workload next week - there were things I wanted to do today but as I had 3 pints of lager last n night - it’s been a complete write off. I have zero tolerance for alcohol now.

Wednesday, 31 August 2016


Last night I worked behind the bar at a hastings Fringe Festival event. This included ‘dulling’ poets (terrible) a couple of improvised music performances (not great) and Christian stand up comedy….. I’ll just leave that hanging in the air. It was everything you could imagine, and far, far worse.

We had a wedding at the bar on Saturday - I worked 10 hours and as a consequence spent half of Sunday asleep. But it was a great wedding and everyone was lovely. A coupe I’,m friendly with also married on Friday. There must be something in the air.

I’m working again tonight - more fringe festival stuff - I may just zone out. It’s actually very boring when the bar isn’t busy.

The weather is still very good - but I have a feeling it’s about to end.

I did a bit of cleaning and gardening over the long weekend - and painted my front door a darker shade of grey. Looks terrible - really streaky - I don’t know why. I’m really disappointed. Another coat is in order.

I have a lot of work on at the moment. All really bitty and complicated - and I’m constantly having to stop to sort stuff or wait for feedback and further instructions.

I have to go home early and return to work behind the bar tonight - I’m actually thinking of going now.

Thursday, 25 August 2016


After yesterday’s great news about John and Rachel. It’s back to normal - with the added advantage of being too hot to work.

Went for a walk earlier - the Hospice charity shop now seems to be staffed by patients, it’s stranger ever time I go in there. A girl came in and asked if ‘June had been in’ - woman replied “yes, she was in earlier asking about birth control”.

The mother of someone close to me died suddenly at the worst possible time - it’s been very upsetting. A long and difficult few weeks. Made worse by the deaths of 5 young men in the sea along from my house.

The French Burkini thing is just absurd, and stupid, and racist. I normally really like the French, but they have to try a lot harder. There may be a lot of reasons why a woman chooses to wear a burkini - frankly - it’s either their choice, and nobody should be able to tell them otherwise, or they feel it’s appropriate or pressurised for one reason - and singling them out for more abuse just makes it even worse. Bloody idiots.

We had a gig at the Printworks on Tuesday night, really busy - very successful evening - I was exhausted by the time I got home. It’s interesting that many young people now pay for their drinks with contactless cards - one drink at a time - without actually connecting with the ‘cash’ side - I bet they have a shock at the end of the month when their bank statement arrives. This is how people get into debt.

One of the bouncers told me that he’s just been on holiday to Spain for a week and spent £2000… on ‘fun’.. He said it was OK because it was only a months salary. He’s 19.

Bumped into an old friend who bought a house here 2 years ago and has just sold it for £90k more than they paid for it. That’s more than my entire mortgage. He’s buying up a business that frankly - is so wrong for him - I was desperate to make my excuses and leave.

Was asked to look at a project with a high profile for a client - did some critical analysis and the responses ‘nah - we just want you to pick a font’ - complete waste of my time. Nobody values actual creative work now.

I’m working at a wedding on Saturday - I think it’s going to be quite posh - I better sort out a clean shirt and remember to iron it this time.

Have a meeting tomorrow with a client at 3pm - I’ll finish work straight afterwards. The extra heat this week really doesn’t suit me. I’m vaguely thinking about cycling to Bexhill now to see the new Peter Blake show at the De La Warr Pavillion. I’ll possibly go home after that. I’ve been at my desk since 7am - I get tetchy in the heat.

Wednesday, 24 August 2016

Quick Update

Not much good is happening in the world - I’ve had some more bad news and everything is generally very difficult. However. I went into town today for a bit of lunch and a plane flew over with one of those message trails - I presumed it was political, lots of people looked up and strained their necks. Later, when I checked - I realised it was a message from my mate John to his girlfriend. She said yes. 

Monday, 22 August 2016


At home today - doing a bit of cleaning - but actually watching ‘Lifeboat’ by Hitchcock - a favourite film. Had a brief conversation about the documentary I am in with the director earlier - apparently I’m ‘the best thing in it, apart from the lawyer” - It’s going to be in the Toronto Film Festival, apparently. Still absurdly excited about having an IMDB listing.
The weather has really turned - some bits of hot sun, but much cooler, overcast and very windy.
My neighbour now has a dog, and after about 6 years has started saying hello to me. 
Yesterday morning - as I took the dogs out I bumped straight into Hughes dad and his brother in law, they had just taken the little girl out for some fresh air - I’d written to them the day before - and the house is full of people at the moment - but hadn’t expected to see them. He’s such a nice bloke he automatically gave me a hug, like it was me that hard lost something - not him. I have to say I just burst into tears. Made the joke that the bump on the head finally made me into a normal person with feelings.
No resurgence of the fly infestation - I still have no idea what that was about but suspect my cousin was right about the type that lay eggs in timber joists.

Last week I went out to buy a sandwich at lunch time, there is a flight of about 12 steps neat the Creative Media Centre in Claremont - a man in his early 30’s wearing a tracksuit came down the steps, looking at his phone. Behind him were two small children and a woman with a baby in a pram hesitated at the top and braced herself for negotiating the pram down the stairs - so I offered to help. She thanked made - and the man who I saw first said ‘ah, cheers mate’ without looking up from his phone. I helped the woman down the stairs ‘it’s so difficult having 3 children’ she apologised - and as they went away the man thanked me again and walked alongside her. Still without looking up from his phone. I could have punched him.
I’ve managed to get through the entire Olympics without watching a single frame.

I have quite a bit of bar and security work lined up starting on Tuesday - having that little bit of cash coming in really takes the edge off things, I don’t have to go to my account for day to day living expenses.

Happy Birthday Karlheinz Stockhausen. I based the graphics for a piece of work I did for a musician on some of his annotations, I was really pleased with it - client had no idea what I was talking about.